sikilmahfud

Since middle of 2011, I became the most senior generation in my campus. And because of that, I decrease my activity in campus in order to be focus on internship report and thesis. I’m not active in campus as the first three years. And because I’ve also taken most of lecture subjects in early three years, now I can ‘enjoy’ much free-time.

But having much free-time makes me feel lonely. I mostly do my internship report and thesis in my home while online; connect Internet to search important materials or do some chats in social network. Really, I feel lonely, I feel like I must build this life. I feel my life is half-filled. 

After I graduate, I do want to have right community to grow up together. I do want to grow up spiritually so I can build better relationship with Jesus. So I can be strong against every temptation that comes to test me. I really can’t do it alone. I do want to live in God’s plan…I want to be focus on His way and His dream. I want to grow up. Someday I must marry a girl and build a new family, so I must become a better person. But I can’t grow up maximally when I’m alone. Yes I realize it very much.

Anyway, thanks God for this time. Though I still can’t see Your plan for my life thoroughly, I won’t waste this moment. I’ll use this moment to learn as much as I can before You end this moment. Yes, this is a moment of waiting! Six months to go, and I must do my best!