“Hmmh…today is so bored….what must I do?”
“Hello Yose, what’s up?”
“Hey friend! I feel bored today. Just repetition and repetition I do everyday.”
“Bored? Oh come on…so your life today isn’t the life you really want?”
“Emmm…yeah, maybe…”
“So, what kind of life you want?”
“I want to break up these limitations. Now I still have some characters that I want to change. I still feel I can’t easily go outside. I do really want to be independent, can decide everything by myself. ”
“Be patient, Yose. Maybe you still can’t do some things. But remember that your study remains 1.5 years. Be patient. If you feel so, just remember several years ago, when you are still in High School. Of course you have more today than the past, right?”
“I think you’re right. I feel much happier today. I have much more good friends. I have many experiences with foreigners. I’ve already omitted some of my bad habits. I know many interesting websites. I have this blog. I am much knowledgeable. All that I’ve mentioned, I don’t have them in the past, thanks God for giving them to me. But…”
“But what? You still feel not enough?”
“To be honest, yes. You know, I still don’t know who really I am. I mean, I life for what? Just do this repetition?? Isn’t there such thing that’s more meaningful for being done? I will do with passion! I will do with my all! I will…”
“Calm down, friend, calm down. I know you are good hoper. To encourage you to pass today, I would like to hear about your dream, please.”
“I wish I can get scholarship to continue my study in Japan. Then I’ll use my knowledge to create better world. You know, there are many disasters happen and I want to help. I also want to go to Japan, China, and Korea. There are many beautiful places I want to visit. Mount Fuji, Kyoto, Shanghai, Great Wall, Jeju Island, and still so many. I also want to make friends with people from those countries. I also want to teach children, help them to find their dream.”
“Wow….you have so many beautiful dreams….if so, why are you defeated by today’s boredom?”
“Eh…?”
“Just continue your progress. Don’t waste too much time coping with boredom. Five years later I’ll ask you again with the same question: ‘of course you have more today than the past, right?’”
“Thank you so much for your advise, friend. It encourages me so much.”
“Yeah, now wake up, good boy.”
Then I wake up and take my Mandarin book.
Cities afar, full of skyscrapers
Every trip, going by fast train or double dekker bus
Awesome scenery, snow-capped mountain, clean river...
A place where snow falls
A place where there's warm spring
A place where cool wind of autumn blows
Tree's leaves over there, colorized with purple and red
The place where people speak language that I can't understand
The place where many people over the world
Dream if someday, could be there
I'm the one of them!
I have a dream...
Wondering if I could go there
Continue my study there
Meet with scientists that gather
from many places around the world
Plan to create a sophisticated machine
That haven't yet created
That machine, will be useful for the world
Wondering, could I take part??
Ha ha ha...
But I'm still here, in my room
Still don't have money, time, and knowledge
Powerless to do the big thing
Even just to visit a country for a bit moment...
Just for a bit moment of my life??
At the moment, I feel I am ridiculoused
By myself...
It's true, I'm powerless
To change, to determine my own fate
I'm just day-dreaming now
I am just wondering!!
So, I need U Jesus
I know I'm just a meaningless boy
Therefore, I am praying
Therefore, I am begging U Jesus
I just wanna enjoy the life that U give to me
I wanna see the world
Not just to stay here along my life!!
I wanna do something big
Please Jesus...
I know, I must do my best
Today...
If I must sacrifice something now...
I will!
If that sacrifice could bring me to realize my dream
Compared to the bright future that U'll give to me,
it just small sacrifice, isn't it?
Just in my side, Jesus
Don't leave me alone
Let us walking step by step
Please Jesus, teach me to do my best...
Now I can smile
Though I'm just a meaningless boy,
but I'm hopeful!
Well, this is my dream....I imagine if my dream become reality!
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Wow, finally my dream can be realized! Yesterday night, when I opened my Yahoo email, I got message that I’ve registered in Kyoto University, Japan! Hence I couldn’t sleep that night. I can’t stop to say thanks to Lord! Finally, I could close my eyes in the early morning…
Tomorrow, I woke up too late. This week I must prepare everything that I need to go Japan: important documents, visa, stuff, airplane ticket, and I won’t forget the one: Bible. Thanks Lord! I also must go to Japan ambassador’s office to get further information about everything that must be prepared, especially things that I needed when I’m already in Japan. I also browse internet to get info about my class and my dictate. Robotto, Japan, ASIMO, I’m coming!
One week passed, finally I finish my business. Ha! I feel relieved, my struggle up till now to change my bad characters, to motivate myself to always learn and learn, and to be faithful with Jesus is success! Now I must say goodbye with my family and friends. My family is very happy I can reach my dream, though they feel sad I will go. But I’ve already taught them to keep contact with me by email, facebook, messenger and so on. Many messages “congratz” appear in my handphone and facebook’s wall. Wow, thanks Lord, You always understand everything what I need, my hope in You won’t disappointed me!
The day I go to Japan finally comes, me and my family go to Soekarno-Hatta airport. There are also my best friends go with me. After say goodbye and give last advises, I and my friends go to airport. Our flight will start within several minutes. I bring my suitcase toward the plane.
“The plane will flight to Narita airport, Tokyo immediately. Use your safe belt.” Slowly, the plane begins to take off. Yay!
Several minutes passed. The plane already flies high in the sky. I talk with my friends, share our experience of life. The long flight but meaningful finally ends when the plane lands in Narita airport, Tokyo. Lord, thanks! This is the country I always dreamed in the past, now I’m here! Afterward, I and my friends go with taxi to a hotel in Tokyo.
Several days passed. I already found apartment in Kyoto to live after I search in the internet. Yeah, I feel confuse to live in this country, but fortunately there is a guider to help me. He said, if I will go to Kyoto I must go by Shinkansen, Japanese electric train. Wow, how beautiful if a dream become reality.
Two days after, I go to Kyoto by one of the best train in the world, Shinkansen. Here is very clean and neat, I am amazed with this country. The attendants are also very friendly, though they can’t speak English well. I see from the window, Fujiyama, Japanese icon! Am I dreaming? I blink my eye, still don’t believe it. No, this is real! The beautiful mountain with snow capped at the top, that in the past I just saw it in the photos, now in front of my eyes! Thanks Lord!
I arrive in Kyoto. I go by taxi to my apartment. In my apartment, the condition is very supportive to learn, there is fast internet connection. There is also a computer to do programming, though I actually already have a laptop.
One day after, I go to Kyoto University to get all important info. Yeah, one week later I must start to study. I must do my best to study here; I want to better that Japanese student. I still have a dream after I graduate, I can use my ability to help the world through producing smart machines that can help many people.
Study time finally comes. I am very happy; I never stop say thanks to Jesus. But in the other side I feel unusual! I feel embarrassed when I see many Japanese students. Because of that I just say “ohayoo gozaimasu” to them with smile. Haha, but I still have Indonesia friends to help me to adapt with new situation, at least for the first days…
Many months passed. This university is really high class, lecturers teach us with full English. Everyday we hold discussion, programming, and research. To make my brain chill, every Saturday I go around Kyoto for half day, and the next half day to learn again. Sunday, I go to church for Indonesia people in this city, and say thanks to Jesus for everything.
Yeah, I still have a dream, my purpose not yet become real. To produce smart machines! I will try all of my best to study in this high class university. I will prove that Indonesian people can be better than Japanese people! Jesus, please walk beside me along my life, don’t leave me alone. I can’t walk on my life without U. I will do my best to glorify U!
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Later, if I’ve became established in my life, I want to travelling around the world. Maybe through backpacking, real tourist, or, researching that allow me to go to overseas. Or, maybe I can join with expert photography club?
If I may choose, I’ll go to the ‘extreme’ place! What’s the meaning of ‘extreme’? I mean, I’ll go to islands that people rarely notice. Because I want to know what’s the exist things there. I think, these places are still natural and less people go to, for example, Christmas Island ( do you know this island in world map? Hehe…) , rather than Tokyo, Vancouver, or Los Angeles.
Do you know Tierra del Fuego island? I think it’s neglected area in the world map, hehe. But I want to go there! Can you imagine, an island that facing directly to Antartica! Every morning I can see and maybe, play with penguins that live there. Penguin, penguin. Funny and cute animal. If I am lucky, I can see colorful sky in the night that caused by Australis Aurora. Astonishing!
Or, I want to stay for a month in somewhere near lake in Finland. Every morning, while I wake up and stare from my window, I’ll see clear and pure water that reflecting sunlight. Behind my house, there is pine forest. I want to feel how to be a deer hunter. And in the night, I’ve already near fireplace, wearing a warm coat, and eating roasted deer that I hunted morning before, while snow falls outside. How beautiful! Peaceful! It’s difficult to be explained by word…
In addition, I like big cities like Tokyo, London, New York, and Vancouver. I want to go by Japanese fast train, Shinkansen, or having a photo about me with Liberty statue background. Faraway, faraway. Oh God, thanks for this beautiful world that You’ll show me about these beauty, scenery, and many beautiful things…..
