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Now I have been in Jakarta, working as trainee for one month already. I feel this moment doesn’t have much different with the time when I was in university. Learn, play, and hangout with new friends…I feel very grateful. I remembered my last semester, when I feel so confused about future, whether I will continue my study or work first. But I am only human anyway, my view about future is very, very limited. So my plan which I think is the best isn’t always the best in God’s eyes. Yeah, I have learned one lesson now.

In Jakarta, I learn more about life lesson from many people: my mom, my aunt, my colleagues, and also board directors in the place where I work. One thing I must always remember in my mind is: to be a better person, I must stop idolizing my own self. Sometimes we felt better when we criticize others, when we post some good words in social network, when we talk about things that are right in our own view, when we said God’s word, so we can be seen as hero. But as time goes by, such actions will make us proud of our own self. When others criticize us, we will become sensitive and then defend ourselves. And it will make God sad, because without we realize, we forget God and become self-centered.

To be a better person, we must throw our own self away and learn from others instead of criticize them. So we can be a blessing to others. I have so many plans when I was in university, but in the end God’s plan will be done. It proves that our life isn’t us at all. Our life isn’t ours, it’s all about God’s glory.

Even when we struggle with desperation, even when we must struggle with dark side, even when we must experience trials and misery, but if it’s God’s plan….it’s OK. Just do the best with our part. Coz life is all about God.

Having free personality

That can smile whatever the condition is

That can be more open to everyone

When everyone sees me, they feel comfortable near me

Having many best friends

More open, more open

No more dark side

No more things to hide

That is my dream

That is what I want to be in the future

I won’t escape from past

But I will deal with past no matter what

It’s not easy for me

Who has been an introvert for years

But this is my dream

I will fly to the sky

I will soar high in the sky

And for that reason

I will continue to fight

Coz life is precious

自由のために闘って続け！

My campus life changes me a lot to be a better people. I remember when I was in High School, I don’t have any special thing about my life. My life was bored. My parents always said that I am clever since I was born but I couldn’t prove it in High School. Because no one motivate me, and my life was very bored. I played online game almost every day. I wasted so many money, even I ever lent money to my friends and didn’t pay back.

Everything changes step by step after High School graduation and the holiday began. At that time I felt very, very useless. I felt so shame that I couldn’t prove anything. I was just such burden for my family. And yet no one motivated me and encouraged me.

At that time, God said in my heart “You can change yourself begin from small thing”. I tried to throw away some bad habits though my parents couldn’t see my change yet.

Then the holiday ended and I entered new university. Firstly, new students didn’t go to attend lecture but there was orientation time first. I remembered my first day in university I heard my rector speech. I don’t remember what she said now but one thing that I remembered is, her speech motivated me very much. It’s the first time I feel motivated by others. 

My biggest obstacle when I entered new university is my interpersonal ability. I felt stressed when I entered new environment and I couldn’t find any people I know. During my orientation time, I felt no difference about my view for my friends during orientation time. I was still afraid to know more about other people. But I got so many motivations from my rector and other tutors that guide new students. 

Then the orientation time ended and lecture began. I felt my first year was nice. I met good friends and lecturers in my class, IT 2. They are different from my friends in High School. Though my interpersonal ability is low, they still want to accompany me. And you know, it affected my study progress. I got GPA 3.87 in semester one. 

Not only good friend I met, but my lecturers motivated me so much. They were not only giving lecture but also said about IT prospect. It raised my enthusiasm and as a result, boosts my study progress. In addition, there was also English and Mandarin lesson, and the lecturers are great person too. We learned in various method such as watching video, storytelling, and group task. It was very lively indeed. Because of them, I continue to learn English and Mandarin until now. 

Thanks to them, I never imagine I will meet them when I was High School.