sikilmahfud

chotto dake kangae sugichau mitai
nemurenai heya no naka

It seems like I'm thinking a little bit too much
Here, sleepless in my room


isso mou yoru wo tobidashite mitai
madobe ni tameiki ga ochiru

I feel like I might as well take off into the night
A sigh falls next to the window


tsuki akari wo nukete tooku made
habataite mitai no ni
dou shitara ii no darou?

I slip out into the moon light, to somewhere far away
But I want to try and flap my wings
What should I do?


I want to fly well I want to fly well
tobikata wo shiranai dake...
I want to fly well I want to fly well
dare ka oshiete kuretara ii no ni

I want to fly well, I want to fly well
Though I don't know how to fly...
I want to fly well, I want to fly well
I wish someone would show me how


kitto mada shiranai koto bakari da yo
TV mo uso bakari de

There are surely plenty of things that I don't yet know
And there's nothing but lies on TV


amayadori no tochuu itsu made mo
kou shite hairarenai
zubunure demo kamawanai

I can't do this kind of thing
When taking shelter from the rain
I'm soaking wet, but I don't care


I want to fly well I want to fly well
tobikata wo shiru tame ni wa...
I want to fly well I want to fly well
sora ni denakucha ikenai to skyline

I want to fly well, I want to fly well
In order to know how to fly...
I want to fly well, I want to fly well
I've got to get into the sky, to skyline


chansu wo machi kirenai
onaji asa wo kuri kaeshite
ikutsu kazoeta darou egaite yuku skyline

I can't wait for my chance
The same morning repeats over and over again
I wonder how many I've counted? I'm going to paint the skyline


tobikata wa shiranai yo toberu ka mo wakaranai yo
I want to fly well I want to fly well
dakedo yuku yo

I don't know how to fly, I'm not sure if I can fly
I want to fly well, I want to fly well
But, here I go


I want to fly well I want to fly well
tobikata wo shiru tame ni wa...
I want to fly well I want to fly well
sora ni denakucha ikenai to skyline

I want to fly well, I want to fly well
In order to know how to fly
I want to fly well, I want to fly well
I've got to get into the sky, to skyline

Do you ever feel falling down deeply so you feel guilty and not decent to be near to Jesus? Do you ever feel guilty because you just hurt people that you love, because of careless word? Maybe we have already commited to be better, but we break our commitment. We realize it very much, we hate it, but why do we can't stop doing something that even, we alone hate it! Maybe there is time when we have uncontrolled anger, lust, or jealous....and afterward we regret it very much...

I ever feel that moment, and until now I'm still struggling with it. That's why I want to share this writing, because I know that there are many people that have same problem. We can strengthen each other then. When that moment comes, I really don't have power to walk on. I really cry to God and pray, "God please...I just want to be better, please help me and please, never leave me alone...". Friend, when the weakness moment come, believe that God never leave us alone, God never hate us at all! Just never lost our relationship with God.

God always helps us in our weak moment, by whispering His word in our heart, or by other people word that strengthen us. That's His word that I must remember at all time, especially in my weak moment:

"Strengthening our heart against sins is a process, and sometimes that's really painful. Temptation that's allowed to be happened in our life won't exceed our strength, because God has already measured it according to our power. God knows each of us, our strengthes and weaknesses, so believe that nothing that can harm us. Nothing that can't be solved. Just put our hope in Him.

Remember that our life is like running competition. There are moments that we feel so tired, but we MUST keep running. We must keep our energy because we have already known our destination, to finish the competition well. Never quit the competition. Same like our life. No matter how hard the temptation entices us, hurts us....we mustn't compromise with it. We MUST never quit to strengthen our commitment. How? Keep praying to Him, build closer and closer relationship with Him!

When we feel really weak, share with others that we believe they can be trusted to help us. When we share each other, we will feel stronger than struggling alone. Remember, temptation that's allowed to be happened in our life, just to prove our faith, our heart, so we will not have three-quarter heart, or ninety-nine percent heart, but ONE heart for Him. So day by day we will be the same as His image.

The most important thing is: NEVER compromise with sins, never give up to make our life beautiful in His eyes. Let God smile see us stronger day by day. Remember that we are not created to be a loser, but we are created according to His plan, His image, we are created to be more than a winner!"