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My campus life changes me a lot to be a better people. I remember when I was in High School, I don’t have any special thing about my life. My life was bored. My parents always said that I am clever since I was born but I couldn’t prove it in High School. Because no one motivate me, and my life was very bored. I played online game almost every day. I wasted so many money, even I ever lent money to my friends and didn’t pay back.

Everything changes step by step after High School graduation and the holiday began. At that time I felt very, very useless. I felt so shame that I couldn’t prove anything. I was just such burden for my family. And yet no one motivated me and encouraged me.

At that time, God said in my heart “You can change yourself begin from small thing”. I tried to throw away some bad habits though my parents couldn’t see my change yet.

Then the holiday ended and I entered new university. Firstly, new students didn’t go to attend lecture but there was orientation time first. I remembered my first day in university I heard my rector speech. I don’t remember what she said now but one thing that I remembered is, her speech motivated me very much. It’s the first time I feel motivated by others. 

My biggest obstacle when I entered new university is my interpersonal ability. I felt stressed when I entered new environment and I couldn’t find any people I know. During my orientation time, I felt no difference about my view for my friends during orientation time. I was still afraid to know more about other people. But I got so many motivations from my rector and other tutors that guide new students. 

Then the orientation time ended and lecture began. I felt my first year was nice. I met good friends and lecturers in my class, IT 2. They are different from my friends in High School. Though my interpersonal ability is low, they still want to accompany me. And you know, it affected my study progress. I got GPA 3.87 in semester one. 

Not only good friend I met, but my lecturers motivated me so much. They were not only giving lecture but also said about IT prospect. It raised my enthusiasm and as a result, boosts my study progress. In addition, there was also English and Mandarin lesson, and the lecturers are great person too. We learned in various method such as watching video, storytelling, and group task. It was very lively indeed. Because of them, I continue to learn English and Mandarin until now. 

Thanks to them, I never imagine I will meet them when I was High School.

Today, July 7, 2012

Finally I finished my study here in Ma Chung University. I’m happy to be a part of my friends’ life, my lecturers’ life, and also my university. I learn so many things here, and my world become much wider than before. I begin to love IT and its prospect, also I begin to have passion in some foreign languages. And I wanna say thank you for good friends and lecturers. I never think I will meet them when I was in high school. It’s not a coincidence, but I believe that’s part of God’s beautiful plan to make us meet each other.

It’s not only good moment but also hard moment I’ve passed. And this university changes me a lot to be a better people. Thanks God for giving me strength to pass this, for accompanying me when I’m sad, and for being happy when I’m happy. 

I will always remember that it's still the beginning to face real life, to fulfil my duty that is destined for me in real world. I feel there are so many areas in my life I haven’t developed yet. There are several areas that are not yet healed. Next step, I will go to Jakarta for work. I will continue to progress, to learn to be better. I will seek His purpose on me. 

Thank you Lord, thank you my family, thank you my friends and lecturers, thank you my university. I’m really happy to be part of you.

Do you have questions that you don’t understand in this life? 

Are you in condition you don’t understand, why do this happen to you?

I have so many questions I don’t understand yet. Why I don’t have nice beginning like others. Where I will go. What I will be in the future. And there are several questions I don’t understand yet.

Every people have its own questions too, and those could be different as time goes by. Those can be your past, those can be your present, those can be your future. Let’s take the simplest example. When we was in Senior High School, we will start questioning which university we will continue our education. After we graduate from university, we will start questioning what kind of job we will take. Who is our future husband/ wife. What kind of future we will have. There are also other types of questions, for example why we are betrayed by people that we believe so much. Why we go bankrupt. Why we must experience this failure. And still so many.

But we know as long as we have God in our life, there is assurance for our life. Remember that we are not God and He is God, so it is normal for us to have so many questions. Remember that He will never leave us. He will never forsake us, for He is faithful. Just go on with Him, believe in Him in our every way, and He will give us the right direction. By walking according to His direction, our questions would be answered one by one.

Do you believe, none of our questions left unanswered in the end? At that time we will realize that our book is finally perfect. God, who is author, will finish our life book. At that time we will completely understand that God’s plan is the best for our life. He loves us perfectly more than we can imagine!