There is a moment
When my question isn't yet answered
When I pray but He doesn't seem to answer
When my heart shouts
"Hey, I want to love, I want to be loved!
I want to be a good friend
But I can't!"
No matter how smart I am
No matter how much knowledge installed in my brain
No matter how many competition I enroll
Even if I won all of them
What are they for??
If nothing can fulfill my heart
with true happiness?
How can I found it, Jesus?
How?
Read many books about "How to Live Happily" ?
Follow many church activities??
People say
"You must love the others whatever they are"
I have tried...
But finally I always feel
I am just a boy
that can't make them happy
I share my feeling, right now
I don't want to wear mask
I don't want to hide my true feeling
My true feeling, it's normal and humanly, right??
Or just me that feel it?
No matter how painful this process
No matter how long I struggle to find the fulfillment
I won't stop, I will try
I will beg Him, in His foot
with all of my strength!!
This silent night, I am in my study room. Remember what I've done today. Really, I feel today I do many mistakes! I feel it's quite difficult to change my bad characters, to become a person that He wants...
"Jesus, I am so sorry for today...I do too many mistakes...I make You disappointed again...I don't know, will I have enough time to change myself??"
Then I feel, He just smile on me. His smile, really make me feel relieved. His gently voice speaks into my heart...
"Calm down Yose, calm down. There is no bad character that can be changed within days. You need process. Just walk with Me, I'll hold your hand so you won't be lost. Have a child heart that is ready to be shaped everytime. Just believe in Me, someday you will shine beautifully."
His gently voice, whisper within my heart. Just like a father that hold his child's hand, so does Jesus accompany me this moment. He teaches me many things about life, love, and happiness...really, Jesus is everything for me!
Please Jesus, don't leave me alone, how naughty I am! ^_^
This morning, I wake up
The sunshine enters brightly through the window
Raise up my spirit
to walk on today
"What will I do today?"
That question, makes me spiritful
Then I get up, prepare everything
When I come to the school
My penpals, friendly greet me
Here, I learn many invaluable things
Knowledge, friendship, and life
Here, I am accompanied by angels
I wonder, is it namely "youth"?
If so, how beautiful the youth is!
The moment where me and my friends
Ask each other with hope
"In the future, what will you be?"
Yeah, we are adventurer!
Don't know where our next journey goes on
We believe one thing, though
While we do our best today
We don't need to be afraid, right?
Oh, how beautiful the youth is!
Moment full of spirit and curiousity
I want to make this moment
as my moment to prepare for the next journey
I want to make this moment
as nice as possible
So it becomes unforgetable moment
Friends, let us walk on today
with a handful of courage
Don't worry, don't be afraid
This moment will never come back
Someday, we will shine vividly!
