Now I have been in Jakarta, working as trainee for one month
already. I feel this moment doesn’t have much different with the time when I
was in university. Learn, play, and hangout with new friends…I feel very
grateful. I remembered my last semester, when I feel so confused about future,
whether I will continue my study or work first. But I am only human anyway, my
view about future is very, very limited. So my plan which I think is the best
isn’t always the best in God’s eyes. Yeah, I have learned one lesson now.
In Jakarta, I learn more about life lesson from many people:
my mom, my aunt, my colleagues, and also board directors in the place where I
work. One thing I must always remember in my mind is: to be a better person, I
must stop idolizing my own self. Sometimes we felt better when we criticize
others, when we post some good words in social network, when we talk about things
that are right in our own view, when we said God’s word, so we can be seen as
hero. But as time goes by, such actions will make us proud of our own self.
When others criticize us, we will become sensitive and then defend ourselves.
And it will make God sad, because without we realize, we forget God and become
self-centered.
To be a better person, we must throw our own self away and
learn from others instead of criticize them. So we can be a blessing to others.
I have so many plans when I was in university, but in the end God’s plan will
be done. It proves that our life isn’t us at all. Our life isn’t ours, it’s all
about God’s glory.
Even when we struggle with desperation, even when we must struggle
with dark side, even when we must experience trials and misery, but if it’s God’s
plan….it’s OK. Just do the best with our part. Coz life is all about God.
