Now I’m already in semester 3. I feel have more colorful life rather than my first day in university. I am trying to achieve maximal GPA, following many activities, and trying to be faithful for Jesus. I want to do my best; maybe Jesus will realize my dream.
In other hand…
I also feel my problems become more and more. Compared with the beginning and mid semester one, that time I felt everything is OK. All of my friends that I know support me very much. Also, I still have many imaginations. Really, I feel that last year is much happier, joyful, and relaxed rather than now.
How about now? Some of my friends don’t support me anymore. I also feel that my mind become much more complex. My imaginations are less than last year. I also sometimes hate myself, why I do this bad thing?? I feel that myself is very hard to be conquered. Problems come and gone away, they make me have at least one stressed day in a week. Oh…no…is it real life??
I remember that in semester one I ever read about philosophy of life. Life is like climbing a high mountain. There is a time I will enter dense bleak forest. If I don’t have someone to guide me, I SURELY WILL DIE. I will lose, don’t know the true direction then finally my journey will be ended tragically, maybe I become prey of wild predator, or even go back to the foot, say to my Jury, I am surrender!!
Is it the purpose of my dream that I begin last year?? Yeah, it’s normal actually. If you decide to climb a high mountain, when will you feel the most spiritful? Just in two places! First, when you decide to begin climbing, then you stare the mountain’s peak, wow it’s awesome! What if I can reach the peak? You wonder, wonder, and wonder, so beautiful. Second, when you’re already in the top, it’s the true happiness. The most beautiful scenery will be seen from the peak. You can see everything: cities, lamps, and forest that you ever pass below.
Nah, what if I am in the slope??
Tiredness, depressed, fear, and doubt will be felt by the climber. So do me now. Sometimes I feel pessimist, am I fool to make such a high dream?? Will I reach the top? I am in the dense bleak forest! Or I can’t bear myself to stop and see below; feel satisfied with all that I’ve already achieved. It’s not more beautiful than the first time I make a dream or later I will be in the peak!
That’s why I need a guider. A guider that’s more than friend, more than parents, that lightens my way even in the darkest forest. I know now I’m being processed so later I can become strong, not easy to fall down. Now I believe, though I’ve so many problems I must go on! Because even in the most difficult problem, my guider always with me. My guider always gives me the safe way. Even when I have problems, there are many friends that support me, thanks to my guider. I must have climber mental, though I am in the dark forest but I must continue step by step to the peak!
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