sikilmahfud

Feel so enthusiastic today
To get more and more knowledge
Brag them to the others
In other hand
I realize
I have no difference with knowledge repository machine
That has no heart
Would serve when asked
Is it the purpose of life, just collect more and more knowledge?
Or just to get the others’ appreciation, or to survive??
Now, I feel I just a cold-hearted boy

Days and hours that I’ve passed
Happiness and sadness
Come like a rolling stone
The moment when I feel happy and spiritful
Would the matter of time
decrease my spirit
little by little bit?
Now, I feel I just a cold-hearted boy

The moment when sadness come
The selfishness comes up
Feel alienated
Feel hard to forgive
Feel hard to say thanks
Afterward
When happiness moment comes
Disappointed feeling follows the moment
Why couldn’t I say thanks?
Now, I feel
I just a cold-hearted boy

Cities afar, full of skyscrapers
Every trip, going by fast train or double dekker bus
Awesome scenery, snow-capped mountain, clean river...
A place where snow falls
A place where there's warm spring
A place where cool wind of autumn blows
Tree's leaves over there, colorized with purple and red
The place where people speak language that I can't understand
The place where many people over the world
Dream if someday, could be there





I'm the one of them!
I have a dream...
Wondering if I could go there
Continue my study there
Meet with scientists that gather
from many places around the world
Plan to create a sophisticated machine
That haven't yet created
That machine, will be useful for the world
Wondering, could I take part??

Ha ha ha...
But I'm still here, in my room
Still don't have money, time, and knowledge
Powerless to do the big thing
Even just to visit a country for a bit moment...
Just for a bit moment of my life??
At the moment, I feel I am ridiculoused
By myself...

It's true, I'm powerless
To change, to determine my own fate
I'm just day-dreaming now
I am just wondering!!
So, I need U Jesus
I know I'm just a meaningless boy
Therefore, I am praying
Therefore, I am begging U Jesus
I just wanna enjoy the life that U give to me
I wanna see the world
Not just to stay here along my life!!
I wanna do something big
Please Jesus...

I know, I must do my best
Today...
If I must sacrifice something now...
I will!
If that sacrifice could bring me to realize my dream
Compared to the bright future that U'll give to me,
it just small sacrifice, isn't it?

Just in my side, Jesus
Don't leave me alone
Let us walking step by step
Please Jesus, teach me to do my best...
Now I can smile
Though I'm just a meaningless boy,
but I'm hopeful!