sikilmahfud

When I remembered my not-too-long past
When I feel so hopeful
When I write about future that I never know
When I walk lonely in the street,
From my campus to my home
When I see the bright noon scenery
When I see the night sky, full of stars
When I feel the cool wind breezes

I remember the moments
When I walk to the church
My hearts pray,
"God, please hold my dreams!"
"God, how long I must wait?"
"God, please use me as Your light, to give smile for the world!"

I remember the moments
When imaginations were sketched strongly inside my head
About science fiction, about future technology
If I can realize just one of them!
That was I thought

When I see picture of big cities of the world
Tokyo, Beijing, Shanghai, Seoul
They really made my heart runs!

At the moment, I should remember all
I must keep them alive!
I know, conditions change much right now
I realize the complexity of life, more than before

Now, really
I won't let my dreams disappear
Just because I see my surrounding
I want to keep my dreams alive
See them grow, through the noon and through the night!
I just want to look up
I need stronger heart, stronger commitment!

When I feel
Like giving up
When I feel
Just fall down and fall down again
When I feel
There is no star anymore
Just the night sky that becomes darker and darker
I’m afraid, I’ll lose the way

When I feel so
Please Lord, make me realize
You still hold my hand
Please make me realize
I still have dream and hope
Please make me sure
That I still walk on Your way

At this moment, at this time
When the night becomes darker and darker
All I need is Your presence upon me
Please, make me sure
You are still with me, hold my small hand
I need You so much Lord!

Do you know the history of Israel and Judah kings thousands of years ago? From Saul, David, Solomon, until Hezekiah, Manasseh, Amon, etc. Their life is always remembered from generation to generation till now. They who live faithfully to God and take care of their people, in the end of their life they are buried with great honor by their people. Why? Because their people lost their beloved king! The kings who live badly, astray their people, and kill many innocent people, they died miserably. Their people don’t love their king. Of course, we will feel much more peace and inspired when we read the king who live faithfully to God till the end, right?

How about our life? Remember, our life is also recorded! Our life will be recorded by God, by our own memory, and by our surrounding. So let’s make our life record beautiful, start from today! Smile gently for our surrounding. Never stop pray and be faithful to God. Make deeper and deeper relationship with God. Throw away “garbage” from our life, like grudge, jealousy, and lust. Be a people who contribute much for our surrounding. Be strong and tough, not easily give up when we face difficult situation. Do every work that is entrusted to us with full heart.

Remember when we grow old someday, such today will be remembered. Could we smile when we remembered today? Could our life inspire our surroundings? Could our life make God smile?



“When we were born, we cried and our surrounding smile. Do the best with our life so that when we die, we smile and our surrounding cries.”


“Because someday, we will open our own autobiography…”