Since middle of 2011, I became the most senior generation in
my campus. And because of that, I decrease my activity in campus in order to be
focus on internship report and thesis. I’m not active in campus as the first
three years. And because I’ve also taken most of lecture subjects in early
three years, now I can ‘enjoy’ much free-time.
But having much free-time makes me feel lonely. I mostly do
my internship report and thesis in my home while online; connect Internet to
search important materials or do some chats in social network. Really, I feel
lonely, I feel like I must build this life. I feel my life is half-filled.
After I graduate, I do want to have right community to grow
up together. I do want to grow up spiritually so I can build better relationship
with Jesus. So I can be strong against every temptation that comes to test me.
I really can’t do it alone. I do want to live in God’s plan…I want to be focus
on His way and His dream. I want to grow up. Someday I must marry a girl and
build a new family, so I must become a better person. But I can’t grow up
maximally when I’m alone. Yes I realize it very much.
Anyway, thanks God for this time. Though I still can’t see Your
plan for my life thoroughly, I won’t waste this moment. I’ll use this moment to
learn as much as I can before You end this moment. Yes, this is a moment of
waiting! Six months to go, and I must do my best!
